30 Jul 2017

July make-up expenses

Week 1 (1-9)

Total: €0.00

Week 2 (10-16)
Ardell Demi Wispies in black €5.99
Catrice Travelight C01 Travel Lust eyeshadow palette €6.99
Essence eyeshadow in 07 the sun is shining €1.99
Nyx Ultimate Shadows Palette in Brights €18.80
Nyx HD Photogenic Concealer Wand in 00 Alabaster €7.20                
(Yes I need to use the palest shade in the collection...)
The Body Shop  Colour Crush eyeshadow in 515 Blue Over You €1.80
(Without discount: €2.00)
Wycon Cosmetics Sugar Skull lipstick in 01 Bloody Heart €4.90
(Without discount: €7.90)

Total: €47.67

Week 3 (17-23)
Catrice Glam & Doll Volume Mascara Waterproof €3.99
Essence Cubanita jumbo highlighter in 01 mi corazón €3.89
Essence Cubanita baking & banana powder in 01 livin' la vida banana €3.89
Essence Cubanita gel eyeliner pen 01 ¡buena vista, baby! €1.99
Essence Cubanita gel eyeliner pen 02 ¡hola guapa! €1.99
Nyx Gel Liner and Smudger in Betty €9.30
Max & More Glow & Highlights Palette €2.55

Total: €27.60

Week 4 (24-31)

Total: €0.00

= €75.27
I only went make-up shopping twice, but I bought a lot. This is mainly because the Nyx store is only in a few big cities in Belgium, so most of the time I go buy things in the Nyx store when I'm sales shopping. My mum and I always go sales shopping in the winter and summer, in Hasselt and Antwerp. Both of these cities have a Nyx store. So what I've spent is a bit higher than usual, but that's because the Nyx products are a little more expensive than my Essence and Catrice products, but they're worth the extra money. You can see some of these products in my July favourites because I've already tested them out! I also bought my first make-up product from The Body Shop, and I'm excited to try it out!
I'm happy with what I've bought and I think I did not spend that much money if you look at what I've bought!

Inspiration: Jolien Nathalie

28 Jul 2017

Body confidence

I wanted to write this blog post because I recently watched The DUFF and I feel like I'm a DUFF. If you don't know what a DUFF is: DUFF stands for Designated Ugly Fat Friend. I know DUFF's aren't necessarily ugly and fat but sometimes I feel like I am. I've always been the "fattest" girl in the group. I've always had these beautiful skinny friends and I always felt like I was not one of them.
Or another example is my sister. She's way skinnier than me and when we were in high school, everyone always asked stuff about my sister or say,"oh you're her sister, right?" Yeah, I always kinda felt like a DUFF but I never knew there was a specific term for that. Now that I've watched the movie, I couldn't resist writing a blog post about being fat & ugly, or in general: body confidence.

To be honest, everyone always has their good and bad days, but it feels like I have more bad days than good days. I'm not that happy with my body. I have a lot of stretch marks, cellulite and I wish I was slimmer.

I always compare myself with everyone else. I have always wanted to be more beautiful. When I'm at school or just anywhere, I always look at other people's body and compare it to mine. I know it's something that I shouldn't do, but that's just who I am. That's one of the reasons why I can be so jealous. My boyfriend is amazing, but like every normal human being, he likes pictures of other girls. The sad part of it is that they're always slim, beautiful and natural. You barely see me without make-up because I feel ugly without it...

The way I look at myself is not entirely my own fault. In high school, there were some people that thought they could just say what they thought of me. Everybody complains about my pale skin, about my big boobs and that I'm too fat to wear a crop top. There was this one time that my sister was talking with her friend about my boobs, that they were too big and that they were ugly (don't mind that that friend has fake boobs now and that they're way too big and look so fake). And last year, 2 girls from my year were saying that I was too fat to wear a crop top. They said something like "I don't understand that she wears a crop top when she's that fat." For those who follow me on Instagram, in this picture you can see the crop top/outfit they were talking about. They are one of the reasons that I hate my body...

There are days that I want a different body, but in the end I am who I am and people have to accept me like this!

26 Jul 2017

June wrap up 2017

I am so ashamed, I forgot to upload my June wrap up. So here it is, with a little delay!

In June I read a total of 3 books, it's not a lot but that's because I had exams. Read further to know what I read this month!

Book 1
Title: A Long Conversation
Series: The Shadowhunter Chronicles
Author: Cassandra Clare
Rating: ★★★★★
About: Goodreads

Book 2
Title: Maanziek
Series: Maanziek #1
Author: Eva Linden
Rating: ★★★★
About: Goodreads
Dutch review

Book 3
Title: No Use For A Name
Author: Penelope Wright
Rating: ★★★★
About: Goodreads

All The Wrong Chords | Review

Title: All the Wrong Chords
Author: Christine Hurley Deriso
Pages: 280 pages
Version: Ebook (ARC)
Publisher: Flux
Release date: 12th December 2017
Rating: ★★★★


All the Wrong Chords tells the story of Scarlett Stiles. Scarlett's lost her brother due to a drug overdose. She wants to feel better and move on, so she spends the summer with her grandfather. She's lifeguarding at the pool but also playing in a new band. She used to play in her brother's band so playing in this new band is kind of hard, but also something she really wants. Besides lifeguarding and playing in the band, she's also falling for a guy...

All the Wrong Chords is such an enjoyable and easy contemporary. I love reading contemporaries when I'm in a reading slump because they're so good and not that difficult to read. All the Wrong Chords was such a nice story about loss, music and love. It was so beautiful, but also sometimes heartbreaking. In my life I also experienced loss and the 2 things that make me feel better are
music and the love of my boyfriend, friends and family. It was also cool that there was a gay character in the book. I love that authors are creating characters that are not all straight!

I really recommend All the Wrong Chords to those who need a light and enjoyable read about loss, music and love!

24 Jul 2017

Top 5 disappointing book to movie adaptations

We all know that book to movie adaptation that really disappointed us? Well, here are my top 5 disappointed book to movie adaptations! (Please note that these are not written in a specific order!!!)

1. Vampire Academy
I've been in love with Vampire Academy for so long but I was so disappointed in the movie. VA is such a good book series and they made the movie into something girly and un-VA. Rose is not as badass as in the movies and there are some weird scenes in the movie... And one of the most important things: Dimitri wasn't as hot and funny as in the books... I hope they either going to remake the movie into a TV show or make a sequel but way better and with a hotter Dimitri...

2. The Divergent series: Insurgent
I love the Divergent book series and read them before the movies came out but wow... Insurgent was so weird. They used a lot of high tech in the movie, certain things were different and one of the things I hate the most is that Shailene Woodley didn't want to wear a wig... I'm sorry but wearing a wig is not such a big problem and certain wigs don't even look fake (I think they did a pretty good job in The Twilight Saga: Eclipse).

3. The Divergent series: Allegiant: Part 1
And then you have Allegiant... What the hell was that? Can you even call that a movie? Allegiant was such a disappointment and I'm really sorry for what they did to Veronica Roth's amazing books. I'm glad that they're not making a part 2 because I don't think they can make an even worse movie than that.

4. The Maze Runner: The Scorch Trials
I read The Maze Runner because I knew there were going to be movies so I read the book and then went to the cinema to watch the movie. I think the first movie was really good, there were some minor changes but that's normal and I understand. But they did some really weird things with The Scorch Trials so I'm curious what they're going to do with The Death Cure. I thought The Scorch Trials wasn't such a good book but the movie was even worse...

5. The Twilight Saga: New Moon
To be honest I didn't know a 5th adaptation that sucked so I picked New Moon only because it's my least favourite movie in the series because there's too much Jacob and I thought that Bella and Edward were often displayed kind of weirdly. Overall The Twilight Saga were really good movies and I secretly hope they're going to make a spin-off series or something!

20 Jul 2017

Cruelty-free make-up

I'm not sure if you guys know but I love supporting cruelty-free make-up brands. There are a lot of YouTubers and bloggers that are supporting cruelty-free make-up brands too, 2 of them are JKissa and Evelina Forsell, and Sarah's Spark once made a video about how cruel her make-up bag is.

Cruelty-free make-up brands that I use: Essence, Catrice, Nyx, Wycon Cosmetics, Lush, Jeffree Star Cosmetics, Sleek, Max & More, Ardell, Gosh, KIKO, MUA and Primark. I have a lot of make-up from these brands and I enjoy buying from them because they're cruelty-free.

I do use some non-cruelty-free make-up brands but I try to buy as much cruelty-free make-up as possible. The brands that I do own make-up from: Maybelline and Rimmel. The good thing is that I only own 4 products from Maybelline and Rimmel: 2 Maybelline lipsticks, 1 Rimmel lipstick and 1 Maybelline gel eyeliner. The sad part is that I always use this gel eyeliner, so I'm trying to find a good cruelty free one (if you know one, let me know!).

And brands I own that I'm not sure of whether they are cruelty-free or not: 2B, BE Creative Make-up (not certified, but they claim that they are), Park Avenue and 3 lipsticks (one is lipstick from a pharmacy and the other 2 are ones I bought from AliExpress). And again, the good thing is that I don't own that much make-up from these brands.

Brands that I want to buy from that are cruelty-free: Morphe, BH Cosmetics, e.l.f., XoBeauty, LA Splash, Shiro Cosmetics, Ofra Cosmetics, The Body Shop, Anastasia Beverly Hills, Colourpop, Kat Von D, Pixi and Wet'N'Wild.

Make-up brands that I will never ever buy from: M.A.C and L'Oréal. I want to mention these because when I discovered that these brands are testing on animals I didn't want to buy anything from them. When I buy make-up, it's most of the time not that expensive, and these 2 brands are. I know L'Oréal is not that expensive, but it's more expensive than my Nyx products, products that I LOVE and that are cruelty-free.

Click here or here to check out what make-up brands are cruelty-free, don't worry if a make-up brand isn't on one of these lists. It's always possible that they are not on this list because of a specific reason or just that the brand is on other cruelty-free lists. You can always check on the internet, for example: "Essence cruelty-free" and most of the time you're directed to their own website where they state that they are cruelty-free. And please, if you're against animal testing, sign this petition to stop animal testing!

I do want to note that I still use skincare and hair products that aren't cruelty-free, but I'm looking for some good cruelty-free alternatives. Let me know whether you buy a lot of cruelty-free make-up and what your favourite cruelty-free make-up brand/product is! 🐰

18 Jul 2017

Een Hof van Vleugels en Verwoesting | Recensie

Titel: Een Hof van Vleugels en Verwoesting
Serie: Een Hof van Doorns en Rozen #3
Schrijver: Sarah J. Maas
Pagina's: 612 pagina's
Versie: Paperback
Uitgeverij: Van Goor
Score: ★★★★★


Feyre is terug naar het Letenhof gegaan om nuttige informatie te vinden voor hun strijd tegen de koning. Wanneer ze genoeg informatie heeft verzameld, gaat ze terug naar het Nachthof, zodat ze allemaal een aanval tegen de koning kunnen plannen. Maar om de koning te kunnen verslaan, moeten alle hoven samen vechten. Maar is dat wel mogelijk?

Ik herinner het me nog dat ik het eerste boek ben gaan halen in de bibliotheek en dat ik ben begonnen in deze geweldige wereld die Sarah J. Maas heeft gecreëerd. Ik hield ervan om het eerste boek te lezen en team Tamlin  te zijn tot ik het tweede boek las. Het tweede boek was nog beter en ik was zo into Rhysand in plaats van Tamlin. En nu ben ik aan het schrijven over het derde boek...

Een Hof van Vleugels en Verwoesting is zo'n geweldig en goed geschreven boek. Het is moeilijk om een ​​echte recensie te schrijven, omdat ik zo sprakeloos ben. Ik voelde zo veel verschillende emoties tijdens het lezen van Een Hof van Vleugels en Verwoesting. Ik was blij, boos en verdrietig. Op het einde was ik aan het wenen omdat Sarah J. Maas heel heel gemeen kan zijn! Sarah J. Maas is zeker een van mijn favoriete auteurs en ik kan niet wachten om een ​​ander boek te lezen dat door haar geschreven is!

Vergeet zeker niet mijn geïnspireerde make-up tutorial te bekijken! 💚

A Court of Wings and Ruin | Review

Title: A Court of Wings and Ruin
Series: A Court of Thorns and Roses #3
Author: Sarah J. Maas
Pages: 699 pages
Version: Paperback
Publisher: Bloomsbury
Rating: ★★★★★


Feyre's gone back to the Spring Court to find helpful information for their fight against the king. When she's gathered enough information, she goes back to the Night Court so they can all plan to attack the king. But to be able to defeat the king, all the courts must fight together. But is that even possible?

I remember bringing the first book from the library and starting in this amazing world that Sarah J. Mas created. I loved reading the first book and being team Tamlin until I read the second book. The second book was even better and I was so into Rhysand instead of Tamlin. And now here I am writing about the third book…

A Court of Wings and Ruin is such an amazing and well-written book. It's hard to write an actual review because I'm so speechless. I felt so many different emotions while reading ACOWAR. I felt happy, angry and sad. At the end I was crying because Sarah J. Maas can be very very evil! Sarah J. Maas is definitely one of my favourite authors and I cannot wait to read another book written by her!

Make sure that you check out my inspired make-up tutorial! 💚

ACOWAR inspired make-up look | Tutorial

Hi guys! The A Court of Thorns and Roses series is one of my all-time favourite book series and when I got A Court of Wings and Ruins in my hands, I just had to create another book inspired make-up look! My look is a little greener than the book itself, but I used the lightest and most blue-like green eyeshadows I had. Even though it's not the same green, I still love the look I created. It's the first time that I made such a 'dramatic' eyeshadow look, it's a winged eyeshadow look and I LOVE it! I hope you guys love it too! I also wrote an English review and a Dutch review, so make sure you check it out!

1. This is probably the first tutorial where I used concealer but I had so many spots and redness, that I just had to conceal it! This is also the first time that I used the Nyx concealer and I really like it! It's also the lightest shade because I'm pale AF.
2. After concealer you should powder, duhh! I used the green loose powder on my cheeks because they're always read and green helps covering it. I used the Catrice powder for the rest of my face.
3. After concealer and powder, we start with our eyes. First we need to prime before we're going to use eyeshadows.
4. After the primer I used a light green eyeshadow in the crease.
5. After the light green, I used a darker green to darken the look. I used this colour in the crease and also on my lid because I decided that I wanted to use some gold in the middle of my eyelid.
6. So like I mentioned, I put some gold in the middle of the eye.
7. I used a black eyeshadow to darken the look even more and give it some definition.
8. Using a gel eyeliner makes your eyeliner stay put the entire day. I used the gel eyeliner on my upper and lower waterline. (BTW I'm looking for a good cruelty-free gel eyeliner, if you know one, let me know!!!)
7. To make the eyeshadow more like a winged eyeshadow, I used the dark green on the lash line and even more below the lash line.
8.Then to darken the look again, I used the black eyeshadow on the lash line.
9. I know I used the gold single eyeshadow to let the look pop with some gold, but I thought that these 2 highlighters made it even better. I also used these highlighters in the inner corner of my eyes and later in the tutorial on my nose, forehead, temples and cheekbones.
10. One of the best parts of the look: lashes. Lately I love applying eyelashes so I always look forward to struggle with the eyelashes and the glue! 😛
11. I thought that the look could even use more gold, so I used a gold eyeliner on the inner part of the lash line.
11. Like I mentioned before, I used these 2 highlighters on the rest of my face.
12. I wasn't sure what/which lipstick to use for this look, but I love wearing black lipstick so that became the lip colour for this look.
13. In my ACOMAF look I also made this gold stripe on my lips and I thought it looked cool so that's why I did it again!
I hope that you guys love this look! 💚

16 Jul 2017

Ardell Natural eyelashes | Review

Brand: Ardell
Style: Natural in 110 black
Price: €5.99
Rating: ★★★★★


I've bought this pair of eyelashes a long time ago, but never really worn them. A little while ago I wore them for the very first time, and also in general the first time that I wore eyelashes not just for a make-up tutorial.

This pair was so easy to put on and they stayed on for the entire night. Like I mentioned before, it was the first time I tried to wear lashes for an entire night, so I was really surprised that they stayed on because they're only €5.99! 

They're so easy to work with and so cheap, I LOVE THEM! I will definitely try another style of lashes from Ardell. Another plus is that Ardell is a cruelty-free brand, and I love cruelty-free brands!

11 Jul 2017

Depression & anxiety

*Trigger warning: descriptions of or extensive discussion on self-harming behaviour*

This is going to be a deep and open blog post, and probably very long so take something to eat and drink and continue reading! I do want to say that I'm not promoting self-harm and if you need someone to talk to, check this website out!

If you guys have read one of my first posts, there was a list of things about me and there you could read that I struggle with depression, anxiety and self-harm. For those who personally know me this might seem like a shock because I don't always talk about it. It's something that I've been struggling with for a really long time.

I want to talk about this because I think it's something important and because more and more people are getting hurt and I want to help them. Since 13 Reasons Why a lot of people immediately had their opinion about it. They (13 Reasons Why) were promoting suicide and showing that particular scene is irresponsible. It's all bullshit. It's just reality. A lot of people are struggling with depression, anxiety, self-harm, suicide thoughts,... We shouldn't be ashamed of ourselves, we shouldn't think that we are weak and never ever look for help, because that's what we need to do. We need to open up about ourselves, we need to talk to someone, a psychiatrist, a psychologist or just a friend. Never ever bottle up your feelings, trust me.

Now a little more about my depression and anxiety. I don't really know from what age I discovered that I felt depressed and had anxiety, but I think somewhere around 13-14 years. It might sound crazy that I'm still "not over it", but I think there's always been some part of me that could never be truly "happy". I don't know how to describe it or how to say it, but that's how I feel. Don't get me wrong, I can feel very happy and I am happy when I'm with my boyfriend, but when he's not around, it feels like he has my happy part and I'm left with my depressed part. I can also be happy when I'm with my friends or family, but when I'm alone I feel lonely and I'm always overthinking.

I never really knew what this emptiness and overthinking was until I heard someone talking about it on YouTube or on a blog, I'm not sure but it was on the internet. When I heard/saw the words "depression" and "anxiety" I began googling it. And okay I hear you all thinking "ugh who searches on the internet for mental illness", but, in my opinion, looking for a mental illness or looking for a disease (like cancer symptoms,...) is something different. Mental illnesses are not that easy to label someone with instead of a disease such as cancer. With mental illnesses there are a lot of different symptoms and not everyone has every symptom. It's easier to look up feelings and ways of behaviour than symptoms of a disease.

I kind of knew what depression was but I never really knew that I had anxiety. So while googling I discovered a lot, such as that anxiety was one of the reasons why I could have sudden headaches, chest pains or abdominal pains. Why I could have perspiration or itchy skin. Why I was always overthinking, thinking about the worst things first and then the good things,... And the best part of it all: why I am so bad with social contact. I'm always nervous, it takes me a while to finally feel myself or feel good when I'm with someone. If someone approaches me, it's a lot easier for me than when I need to approach someone. When I need to approach someone, I start overthinking and getting really nervous and when someone approaches me, I don't have the time to overthink because I need to start talking immediately. It's hard for me to order something in a restaurant, I start getting nervous, getting sweaty and most of the time I don't know how to speak... (It's really hard to explain what anxiety is because it's so many things all at once, but this kind of explains it.)

So now you all know something about me that I've kept as a secret for such a long time. I'm not seeing a doctor/psychiatrist/psychologist and I'm not taking medication. I don't feel like seeing a doctor/psychiatrist/psychologist because I rather talk to someone I know than someone I don't know at all. I just know that I will never open up to a doctor/psychiatrist/psychologist or I would never tell them the whole story. But if you feel like talking to someone, you can always talk to me, one of your friends or a professional.

Remember: you're always someone's reason to smile! 💖

8 Jul 2017

No Use For A Name | Review

Title: No Use For A Name
Author: Penelope Wright
Pages: 256 pages
Version: Paperback (ARC)
Publisher: Reputation Books
Rating: ★★★★


First of all, I want to thank Penelope Wright for giving me an ARC copy of her book, No Use For A Name!

No Use For A Name tells the story of a fifteen-year-old girl who doesn't actually have a name. "Baby" Anderson has a crappy mother and a father who's barely there. She wants to go for het driver's permit and that's how she discovers that she doesn't have a name. Besides having that kind of drama, she also discovers a lot of secrets while falling for a guy...

No Use For A Name is a really good book. I enjoyed reading it and it was really fast paced. I couldn't stop reading and I loved figuring out who was related to who and what was going on. No Use For A Name was such an easy and relaxing read!

6 Jul 2017

June make-up expenses

 I was inspired by Jolien Nathalie's post about her monthly make-up expenses, and I decided to do the same. I really like the concept, it's really original and it may be confronting! Click here to read Jolien Nathalie's post, she's amazing!

Week 1 (1-4)
Essence refreshing hair fragrance 01 you'll never moonwalk alone! €3.39
Essence eyeshadow stick 01 never miss a chance to dance! €2.59

Total: €5.98

Week 2 (5-11)

Total: €0.00

Week 3 (12-18)
Essence sun protect lip conditioner in 01 destination: vacation €2.39
Catrice Volume Lash Dust in C01 Irresistible Eyes €3.99
I have a review for the Catrice Volume Lash Dust!

Total: €6.38

Week 4 (19-25)

Total: €0.00

Week 5 (26-30)
Essence blush brush 01 s'peach & splash! €2.89
HEMA eyeshadow brush & smudge 256 €2.00
HEMA eyeshadow blending brush 105 €3.50
2B Highlighter Blush Powder in 01 Silver €4.95
2B Eyeliner Waterproof in 08 Burgundy €3.95
Garnier Pura Active Charcoal €6.69

Total: €23.98

= €36.34
I didn't have the time to go all crazy and buy a lot of make-up until the last week because I had my exams. And I did go crazy lol! I'm happy with what I've bought and I think I didn't spend too much!
I really like Essence refreshing hair fragrance and the sun protect lip conditioner. I also had to buy another 2B Highlighter Blush Powder because mine broke 😢. I've tried the Garnier Charcoal once, so I cannot say if it works or not, but I'll make a review! And keep an eye out for the Catrice Volume Lash Dust review, it will be up soon!

4 Jul 2017

From everyday make-up to festival make-up | Tutorial

Hi guys! The festival season is here in Belgium so I decided to create an everyday make-up look and some things you can add when you're going to a festival. Glitter and stars are a festival trend lately so I was inspired to make one too! I love wearing warm tones and I think the gold is such a beautiful extra to the look!

Everyday look:
1. One of the most important steps to prevent creasing,... : prime your eyelids with a primer. I love this primer so much, it's cheap and it does its job!

2. I love these little Nyx palettes. I have a cool-toned edition and this warm-toned edition. Use the warm brown shade in the crease and on the lash line.

3. Then use a red and orange shade to deepen the crease and the lash line.

4. Use a highlighting shade (preferable with some gold in it) to highlight the inner part of your eyelid.

5. Make a little liner to hide the lash band later and also use the gel eyeliner on your upper waterline.

6. Wear mascara and eyelashes to make the eye look complete.

7. Use a gold highlighter to match with the rest of the look.

8. And the final step for the everyday look: liquid lipstick!

Festival look:
9. Apply gold eyeliner on your lower waterline.

10. Apply some glitter on top of your golden highlighter to give it something extra.

11. Look for some stars in your local craft store to apply in under your lash line. It looks really cute and I cannot wait to use the stars again!

12. And give your lips something extra by drawing a golden stripe in the middle of your lower lip

And that's it! 💛